I am Alive…

I feel bored out of m mind. I have been listening to Bella’s Lullaby for the past hour but I still love it so much. So I decided to write about it and what it reminds me of. 

It starts so soft it brings chill down my spine reminding me of how I feel when I come across reality. It reminds me of my brother, Qasim, and how every time I think of him I feel that chill down my spine. 

I close my eyes to hear the fast part. It comes at me real fast and I don’t breath for a second. It has a tune that makes you wanna dance with someone. It reminds me of  how life is when it’s fast. You keep on going and going and you don’t slow down because you don’t need too.

The song is getting slower and ending and it reminds me that this is how death will come. So slow yet so graceful. You don’t expect it and yet it comes. 

The whole song is like life. Well I guess it is life. 

Life. Living. Being Alive. 

I know this makes no sense but it’s just jumble up thoughts that I might clear up later. 

Oh and here is the lullaby in case you want to hear it. The video has quotes and pictures related with the movie that is coming out but I only use this video because it has the whole lullaby. 

I have nothing to write about so I decided to write about the music I listen to. Being Pakistani and speaking Urdu and Punjabi, I can easily understand Hindi. I know isn’t it cool. That’s the reason most of the songs I listen to are from Indian movies or Pakistani artist (Pakistan does not really have a good movie industry).  

Anyway, the sub-continent (India, Pakistan, Bangladesh etc.) is very strong when it comes to literature. Poetry, music, novels are what makes our culture so strong and unique. When it comes to music the poetry in the songs are very strong. Now they may not be about world problems but they are about love, relationships, family etc. 

Here are a couple of lines from different songs. You must understand that when I translate the meaning might not be as powerful as it really is.

Sharmo Haya ke parde gira ke

Kar ni hai hum ko hata 

Apparently in the song the guy is telling the girl that she is his one and only. The line means “The curtains of shyness will fall and I will confess to you”.

Tere hath mein

Mera hath ho

Sari janatin 

Mere sath ho

This one means “If I have your hand in mine, then all the heavens are with me”. 

Rishte asaaman ke tara jhok jate hain

Kadam do kadam chal ke hi rok jate hain

This one has to do with relationships. “ Relation fall down just like the sky. After two steps the stop”. The whole song was actually written to say that you may have problems in your relationships, but it’s normal.

Ankhou me ankhe teri

Bahou me bahain teir

Mera na muj me kuch rah

Whoa kya

Bathou me Batain teri

Rathe sagate teri

Kyou tera sab ye ho gaya

Howa kya

This is really strong passionate love. The guy is saying to the girl. “My eyes are your eyes. My arms are your arms. I have nothing of myself that belongs to me, What happened? My talk  is your talk. My nights are your nights. Why is all of me belonging to you? What happened?” This really shows how one in love belongs to the other.

Dooor ja ke bhi muj se

Tum meri yadoun mein rehna

Kabi Alvida na kehana

Kabi Alvida na kehana

This is from a real sad song about two lovers fighting. “Even when you go far, stay in my memories. Don’t ever say goodbye. Don’t ever say goodbye”.

Tum ko paya hai to jese khoya hou

Kehna chahou behi to tum se kya khahou

Kesi jaban me hi woh lavez he nahin

Ke jin me tum ho kya tumain pata sakon

Main agar kayhou, tum say haseen

Kayanat main, nehi hai khain

Tarif yeh beh to, sach hai koch be nahain

This is the ultimate love verse. “Even since I have found you I have lost myself. If I could say something to you what would it be? There is no language out there that has the words to explain what you are. If I say that there is no one more beautiful in this universe then you, then it’s still not enough.” Very strong words here.

Pehli nazar main me kesa jado kar dia

Tera man betha hain mera jeya

Jane kya ho ga, kya ho ga kya pata

Is pal ko mil ke ajj je lain zara

In this song the guy is explaining love at first sight. “The first glance has done great magic. I have fallen for you. Who knows what will happen tomorrow. Come and lets make the most of this moment now”.

Hum jo chalne lage

Chalne lage hain ye rasate

Manjal se behter lagne lage hain

Ye rasete

This is one of those life songs. “Now that we are moving, these paths are moving. The paths are looking better then our destiny”. Which in short means enjoy every moment in life.

I have only sniffed through 1/3 of my songs to come up with this. I know no one really cares but I’m trying to show how important poetry is to my world. If I get a couple of comments that say people liked it and that they would like more, I would proundly do more. These songs are modern, and as my mom says, have lost the real poetry. If you thought this was deep wait till I go back 10 years. the poetry then was so deep that people called them killer songs. 

This mothers day I have a surprise for my mom but I’m getting the translation for a Hindi song about a child complaining to his mom after he got send to a boarding school because he had dyslexia and his parents thought he was faking it and as punishment they send him. It’s from the movie “Tarre Zameen Par”, which means stars on earth. It was a real emotional movie. Anyway, I wanted to dedicate this song to my mom, even though mother’s day is tomorrow, And I wanted to wish a happy mothers day to any mom reading this

Here is the song

main kabhi batlata nahin 

i never say this

par andhere se darta hoon main maa 

but i am frightened of the dark, mom

yun to main,dikhlata nahin 

i do not show it

teri parwaah karta hoon main maa 

but i care for you, mom

tujhe sab hain pata, hain na maa 

you know all this, don’t you mom?

tujhe sab hain pata,,meri maa 

you know it all, my mom

bheed mein yun na chodo mujhe 

do not leave me in the crowd that

ghar laut ke bhi aa naa paoon maa 

i am unable to return home mom

bhej na itna door mujkko tu 

don’t send me so far away

yaad bhi tujhko aa naa paoon maa 

that you don’t think of me, mom

kya itna bura hoon main maa 

am i so bad, mom

kya itna bura meri maa 

am i that bad, my mom?

jab bhi kabhi papa mujhe 

whenever dad

jo zor se jhoola jhulate hain maa 

swings me high on the swing, mom

meri nazar dhoondhe tujhe 

i look out for you

sochu yahi tu aa ke thaamegi maa 

thinking you will support me mom

unse main yeh kehta nahin 

i don’t tell him this

par main seham jaata hoon maa 

but i become cautious, mom

chehre pe aana deta nahin 

i don’t let it show on my face

dil hi dil mein ghabraata hoon maa 

but i am afraid, mom

tujhe sab hai pata hai naa maa 

you know it all, don’t you mom?

tujhe sab hai pata meri maa 

you know it all, my mom

main kabhi batlata nahin 

i never say this

par andhere se darta hoon main maa 

but i am frightened of the dark mom

yun to main,dikhlata nahin 

i do not show it

teri parwaah karta hoon main maa 

but i care for you, mom

tujhe sab hain pata, hain na maa 

you know all this, don’t you mom?

tujhe sab hain pata, meri maa 

you know it all, my mom

 

I’m having a problem getting the Youtube video here so here is the link. 

Enjoy!